Yesterday, my husband and I had the privilege of hearing our baby’s heartbeat for the first time.
Instantly, I cried. I knew I probably would; I have become a much more emotional person than I used to be. The closer I get to God, the more in tune with my own feelings I am. I feel things more deeply and am more likely to recognize and experience the beauty and wonder in things around me now than I used to be.
I’m grateful for the change. Transitioning from a somewhat Stoic, cynical individual to one whose heart is full of gratitude has been a rough journey but one worth taking. I’m fully alive now.
Lying on the exam table in a silent room, listening to the quiet beat of my baby’s heart, I was reminded of how often I am just like Thomas, Jesus’ disciple, who simply could not believe until He could see the scars and feel the hole in His side.
I knew our baby existed. I saw the proof on the pregnancy test and have been experiencing multiple symptoms which point very clearly to its existence. But something about hearing it for the first time made it more real to me.
God is like that.
He’s always there, even when we can’t see, feel, or hear Him. His heart keeps beating for us and waiting for us to listen.
It really is a miracle.
Even after 25 years, I can still remember hearing my daughter’s heartbeat for the first time…..isn’t it wonderful hearing a miracle of God? 🙂
Henry, we will certainly put that on the list :). I can really relate to Thomas; I’m glad God had folks write about all kinds of people, most of them very imperfect, because it helps me understand & relate to them much better!
neat-o. Babies are God’s gift to man & woman, a visible sign of an invisible reality (God Himself). I love the story about “Doubting Thomas” Jesus completely owned that dude. I would like to suggest a name … “Henry” .. it’s really awesome. Just planting that seed 🙂
OK, I just cried. I felt the SAME WAY when I heard my firstborn’s heartbeat(he’s now 21) It was SO REAL! I love that you related this to God….perfect.
Thank you Chrystal!
This ranks as one of my favorites of all your writings!!
Oh thanks Heather! I’m glad you liked it.