Willingly out of work

Snuggied up at EDS, 2008

Since I began tutoring a boy in our neighborhood at the age of 13, I’ve been employed. I tried my hand at the fast food industry, bussed tables at a fish house, scooped ice cream at a small town diner, and handled deposits and light accounting work for McDonald’s. In college, I found other part-time jobs to bring in enough income to gas up my car for frequent road trips and fund my concert t-shirt fund. I worked in a church nursery, managed a room full of babies in  a daycare, taught gymnastics, hosted birthday parties, and led a youth group. After college, I moved on to full-time employment, and worked full-time without more than a week off at a time until I began working part-time last fall. I’ve lived my life taking complete care of myself (and others along the way). So this week, it feels a little like jumping off a fast-moving train, trying to adjust to the pace of walking beside the tracks.

With the Weaver munchkins at Weaver Family Medicine, 2011

This is my last week as an employed person for at least six months. I’ve never NOT worked for six months. It feels a little strange. What if we don’t have enough income to make this work? What if I get incredibly bored? What if I feel like I’m mooching off my husband?

Despite these fears that flit in and out of my thoughts, I’m mostly filled with gratitude. Were it not for the support of my husband, I’d have to continue working full-time for the rest of my life and leave my baby in the hands of others to raise. If it weren’t for our conscious decisions to live way below our means, we wouldn’t be in the financial position to make my unemployment feasible. Being off work for the next six months will allow me to nearly finish my Master’s degree without as many distractions and with considerably less stress. It will also give me the opportunity to clean the house obsessively in preparation for our baby’s arrival and to help out with multiple home renovations.

I’ve always hoped that if I had children, I could do it the way I wanted to do it. I knew I wanted to stay at home with them, at least for the first few years. I knew I wanted to give them as much of myself as possible. I just didn’t know if I’d be able to. I’m so grateful I am.


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  1. I hope I get to stay home, too, and I’ve thought the very same things about actually being out of work and how odd it will be to be without a paying job (monetarily, anyway). =) Blessings to you, my friend. I am so happy you have been blessed with this man of your dreams and with this baby!

    1. Thanks JQ–I am sure it’ll have its benefits and drawbacks like everything, but I feel totally secure in the decision and blessed to be able to carry it through. I hope the same for you and wish you and Jon nothing but the best of everything together!

  2. It’s odd; I don’t even see it as a sacrifice (at least not yet). I feel so lucky to be able to do this. I know many people who’d like to stay home with their kids and don’t have the option so I am grateful!

  3. I loved being ‘off work’ while I was pregnant, and now that I’m a SAHM. It is such a blessing that many envy. I enjoy the little things in our routine, like making coffee and not rushing through breakfast, hearing the mailman every day, watching my neighbors play in the pool or water their plants. There is a whole world off work, it’s wonderful! And you’re making a baby, thats hard work in itself! Enjoy!

    1. I think I’ll love it, too. I’m planning on teaching as an adjunct in the spring, so I won’t be completely unemployed for long, but just getting to work from home will be awesome and give me the chance to take care of our baby.

  4. So exciting Bethany- remember….God is giving you this baby, so just about any sacrifice of comfort is worth it! by the way, I can relate to how you’re feeling…..when I received my 100% disability pension from the VA….it also meant no longer working…..huge adjustment, but God led me through it as I trust he will lead you!

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